Falling

My romantic nights are now a joke
that only i get
It was my own heart that I broke
on numerous occasions
I had my many engagements
But somehow all were sabotaged
in a blackhearted montage
of reckless arguments and misunderstandings
this monster in my soul is all too demanding
when i slip into my dark desires
when my strength to fight simply expires
The person i become I loathe with all my being
Sometimes I question is I really am jst what I'm seeing
A man who cant understand why he does the things he does
A man who cant admit
cant submit to love
Maybe to change I just need the right girl
or maybe its me
I have to really want to be
different
changed
Over the years I've experienced so much pain
Pain i've given others
pain i've given you
I need to start anew
to start fresh
It feels like I fall deeper with each breathe
throw me a lifeline
the time is prime
to start the climb
to the top
to the peak
I thinks its up there that we'll meet
you can be the bane
to this monster that causes pain
My key.