Ugh

Its been a while, I dont know why. It's not as if I dont have anything to write about........I just think writing about it is kind of a way of admitting it. I'm not good at sharing feelings. So essentially life is 1. Boring 2. Annoying 3.Redundant 4. Utterly pointless.
I think my expectations might be too high, because I've come to the conclusion that alot of people disappoint me. Especially the females in my life....LOL. I think it's that I judge every girl on standards that might be too high. I think life might be alot easier and I might actually end up with a relationship that lasts more than 2 months if I stop expecting certain things of them. I mean currently I am just surviving off of just girls, no relationships. I think its mainly because I havent found a girl that holds my interest. No. That's a lie, I have two. But both frustrate me to disbelief....I think that is the root of my attraction. I know it sounds weird but it's almost as if I need to have a girl that challenges me and always keeps me on my toes. I need that constant reminder that I am not god. I love girls who can roughhouse with me. It's fun. But most of all I know that no matter how much time I spend with her, It will never be boring, I will never lose interest.
I also have a problem along with half the world of men with admitting I like someone. I'm stubborn I won't tell them......I imply =) In retrospect it is not the most intelligent of strategies. It's about an 85% successs rate. It's usually bound to fail if the girl who has captured my attention is stubborn like I am. I'm bad at blatently admitting romantic interest. Eh I know my flaws. It's just hard to correct them.